Or as my friend said yesterday on May 4, happy star wars day, May the Fourth be with you!
Another interesting day off and overall positive end to a positive weekend. Went to the ballgame. Mom ended up joining which was cool. A little extra mom time never hurts in the start of May.
Then went to rehab. Not the club. And when they tried to take me, I said no no no!
I happen to know someone that is currently in rehab for whom I care very much about. I had the chance this evening to go see her but as part of the visitation, I had to endure a 90 minute group meeting without her but with other addicts' family and friends. It was, naturally, a bit heavy. What was moving about this environment was seeing first hand that the loved ones of addicts suffer just as much as the addicts themselves. This wasn't news, but being in an al-anon type meeting really brings it to life.
There was a couple who were seriously affected by their daughter/step-daughter, who was recently 'welcomed back' to an in-house program... for the third time. Her father had had enough but was thankful that his wife was still supportive of him as he did his best to get his baby girl back on track... There was another couple, similar, but she had already lost a loved one to addiction and stated that she did not have the strength to even support her husbands support of his daughter suffering from addiction.
Suffice to say, it was intense. I left the meeting after having a terrible cup of coffee begging for some Bailey's and Jameson!...and who could forget the Guinness!
I kid. I wasn't jonesin' for a drink but it certainly was a double dose of reality. It reminded me to be thankful for what I have, and what I don't have. Life is challenging enough being a semi-grownup. It must be way more challenging for a girl who has never known independence, and only dependence on terrible things that my father was able to shield me from.
I asked her if she thought her rehab was worse than what I went through in Bakersfield. Not really a fair question considering divorce and rehab are very different regarding recovery even though both significantly suck! I don't know if I believe her, but she said she preferred where she was to the short life I had in B-Town. This is why I don't trust her.
But today is but a mere stepping stone toward tomorrow. And those stepping stones tend to lead to something great, like the controls to a jacuuzi!
Tomorrow will always be better!
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